Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas!


 

We hope & pray that you have had a wonderful Christmas & that your New Year will be full of love, hope, joy, laughter & God's amazing grace!

We love you our family & friends!

Love, 

Randal & Erin
Amy (11), Ashley (8), Abby (6), Ava (3) & Anibella (1)

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Family Christmas Photos & Shutterfly!

It's no secret that I love photography and that my absolute favorite subjects to photograph are my Husband and our 5 little girls!  Even just a quick glance at my blog will show that one of the most important things to me is documenting our family and the adventures we share together through pictures!  Every year, one of my biggest priorities and something I really enjoy doing is our yearly family Christmas picture.  I start thinking about it months in advance and I get really excited when it's finally time to take our picture, get our cards made and send them all out!  In years past, I have always had our pictures printed out and then sent them along with our letter but this year I'm going to be doing picture cards through Shutterfly!  I used Shutterfly for my sweet littlest baby's birth announcements and I absolutely loved them so I'm super excited to see how our Christmas pictures turn out too!  As a busy wife & mommy to five precious little girls and one on the way, I love Shutterfly because of the many ways they meet my needs!  They are extremely easy to use, very reasonably priced and the quality is amazing too!  My favorite product this year and the one I have chosen to use is these beautiful folded greeting cards.  I love this idea because there is plenty of space for photos inside and out with room for a Christmas letter too!  How great is that!?  I also really appreciate the quality of the product because each card is printed on premium card stock which means that they'll look great and be sturdy enough to protect my photos!  I have to confess (as if you already didn't know!), I'm a little preoccupied with color schemes and coordinating!  I was SO excited when I saw the many many colors, patterns and styles I had to choose from!  My three favorites are.......one, two and three, which go so perfectly with our monochromatic color scheme this year! (which my adorable little 8 year old keeps confusing with "melodramatic" & she totally cracks me up every time!  "Mommy, can I wear my melodramatic outfit today?"!  Ha ha!)  I can hardly wait to share our Shutterfly family Christmas picture cards with all of you, our family and friends!

Thursday, October 28, 2010

My Baby Girl is ONE!!!!!!!

My sweet little baby girl is ONE today!  



At this time one year ago today I was cuddling my precious little newborn baby girl who was just a few hours old.  Our 5th baby girl, our Anibella Hope, came into our lives & completely captivated our hearts at 11:19 am on October 28th, 2009!  She was a sweet, tiny little peanut weighing 6 pounds 7 ounces & measuring 19 1/4 inches long!  Anibella had beautiful deep blue eyes, soft, light brown, CURLY hair (all of our other girlies had completely straight hair so her hair was such a fun surprise!), the adorable signature Palmer button nose, a dimple on each of her kissable little cheeks & a content, sweet & happy disposition from the very beginning!  We were also surprised at how tiny she was because she was born at 39 weeks & 6 days, only ONE day early!  All of our other girls have been a week or even two weeks early & were all between 6 pounds & 7 1/2 pounds.  We thought for sure she would be our biggest because she stayed inside of Mommy for so long!  Well, God knew that our little sweetie girl needed to bake a little longer since she was such a tiny little baby!  When she was born, the nurse exclaimed, "she's such a tiny little peanut!" & I was like, "WHAT?!  How much does she weigh!?"  : )  Another fun & sweet surprise!  She was just PERFECT & we were in LOVE!  : )  I'm so grateful & I love that I got to experience a natural labor & delivery for Anibella's birth!  Her birth was such a wonderful experience that I wish I had done it naturally with my other 4 baby girls too!  Lest you get the wrong impression of me, I do not like pain.  I didn't want to go natural to prove that I could & I definitely don't enjoy pain.  I wanted to do it because I hoped that I would feel better more quickly after & because with all of my other girls I was about 7 cm or so before I even needed to start breathing through my contractions.  With all of our other girls & especially our last two, I delivered veryvery quickly.  My sweet Hubby told our nurse, several times, that they should be ready because when it's time for me to push, our babies come very fast!  She seemed to understand & kinda giggled about it.  Well, because Anibella is our fifth-born & because I had no medication to be able to stop my body from the natural pushing out process, she was actually BORN ON the "practice push"!  My nurse just wanted to see if I was ready & yep, I was!  I gave her one good "practice push" & Anibella was born so quickly that the only nurse in the room delivered her right on the bed with no sterile pad, no stirrups & only one glove while I was laying completely FLAT (including my legs!)!  (all you Mommy's will know how amazing THAT is!)  Anibella surprised her Daddy & especially our poor nurse!  Our amazingly wonderful & very competent nurse managed to lunge across me to push the call button with one hand while cradling our sweet newborn in her other hand (the gloved hand, thank goodness!) & just moments after Anibella was born, the doctor, 2 residents & 2 nurses all came running into our room!  They were shocked, to say the least, that Anibella was born so quickly & without any of the typical "okay-now-we're-gonna-push" stage!  They put my sweet baby girl right on my chest & I cried as I looked at her precious little face!  I was completely undone with emotion & love for her!  I was just amazed!  I was so grateful to God that He had given us our precious little Anibella, that she was born healthy & that she was in my arms!  Since I didn't have any medication, I was able to get up right away & walk around & I felt wonderful!  I was so grateful since with all of my other sweet girlies, I had noodle-legs for the first 4-6 hours after they were born!  Every time a nurse came into my room, they were all fascinated & they wanted to hear Anibella's birth "story" & they wanted to know how & why she was born without a doctor in the room!  So, evidently the hospital doesn't like that kind of thing (for valid liability issues, I'm sure) because the head nurse asked me several times why Anibella was born without a doctor, if I was actually told to stop pushing or keep pushing & what happened.  When I told them that I had a completely natural delivery & that she was born ON the PRACTICE push (which, of course, I couldn't help!), they all did the "Oh, I see!"  It was kinda funny!  : )  So, our sweet baby girl has a great birth story!  Anibella has been such a sweet & precious joy to our family!  She just has such a content, happy & sweet personality!  We love her so very much!  Anibella started walking at nine months old & she is doing amazing!  She walked everywhere now & she just learned how to stand up in middle of a room without holding on to anything!  She is an adventurous little baby!  She loves to climb!  She has learned how to climb up on the couch, our bed & pretty much anything!  She is saying, Mama, Dada, uh oh, all done, night night, sis sis & she just started saying I love you the day before her birthday!  : )  She plays patty cake (the "rolling" part is her favorite!), peekaboo, she blows kisses, waves with one or both hands & she absolutely LOVES to dance to ANY music!  It is SO stinkin cute!  Anytime she hears music or if we start singing, she will move her little shoulders, twist her little body from her waist, move her legs, waggle her little arms, move her head & bounce up & down!  I mean, she really boogies & it's adorable!  : )  She also just started doing something that we absolutely love & it totally cracks us up because it is so incredibly cute!  When we say "smile", she will shrug her little shoulders, tilt her little head sideways onto her shoulder & smile really big! (as if she's posing for a picture!)  Gah, she's SOOOOOOO precious!  : )  One of my very favorite things is to see the sweet relationship that Anibella has with her Daddy!  She loves to melt into him & cuddle on his chest!  Let me tell you, Anibella's Daddy ADORES her!  I love to see them cuddling, playing patty cake or my Hubby laughing at something cute that his littlest baby girl is doing!  It is so precious!  Another of my very favorite things is seeing how much Anibella's 4 big sissies love her!  They all truly love to be with her & play with her!  She is a very patient & enduring baby too!  She lets her sisters "mommy" her & love on her all the time AND she seems to love it too!  She is just genuinely a lovable, sweet, happy & content baby & she is just so much fun to be with!  I will say, a few times we have seen a little of the sinful nature that we know is inherent in all of us!  If she has something that she really wants, like Mommy's cell phone : ), & someone takes it away (since, of course, it's not safe to let her play with Mommy's cell phone!), she does a little angry squeal & scrunches her cute little nose all up!  We are working on that (of course!) & sin is not cute but she certainly is, which makes us have to use lots of self-control to not giggle & to deal with her little attitude properly!  : )  We look forward to seeing all that God has in store for our sweet little Bellie bugs!  HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY our precious Anibella Hope!  We LOVE you baby girl!  : )



We had a simple little family party here at home with just the seven of us & it was very sweet & special!  Anibella's Poppy & Gram were supposed to be here to celebrate her 1st Birthday with us but they had to reschedule their trip at the last minute.  We were sad that they couldn't come & we really missed having them here so I took lots of pictures of all of the sweet little moments so that they could feel like they were here with us!

There are a LOT of pictures in this slide show & I don't expect you to look through them all but I wanted to share all of the special moments of our sweet baby's first birthday with our family & friends who are like family too!



I couldn't find a 1st Birthday theme that I liked or that "went" with all of the pink, orange & white decorations that we already had so I made my own!  We called it "buttons & bows" & my sweet big helper girls did a lot to help me!  : )  The "A-N-I-B-E-L-L-A" letters that are hanging over her highchair are the letters I painted & decorated to hang on the wall in Anibella's nursery before she was born!  I love that we got to use them for her 1st Birthday party, that was really special to me!  : )  I made Anibella's smash cake & her cupcakes too.  This was the first time I had ever used fondant.  My friend encouraged me to make my own marshmallow fondant instead of buying it.  I'm so glad that I did because it tasted much better than regular fondant & it was so much cheaper!  The entire cake-making process took a while but it was so worth it to see my sweet little baby girl squishing it between her cute little baby fingers & the crumbs all over her little mouth!  : )  I made & colored the marshmallow fondant a day ahead so it could rest one day.  The next day I made her white cake from scratch.  It didn't taste as good as I hoped & it was dense, more like a pound cake & I was hoping it would be light & fluffy!  I'm going to keep looking for a good, homemade white cake recipe!  I also made my own buttercream frosting to use as a crumb coating under the fondant.  It tasted delicious but was not as thick as I thought it should be.  I'm moderately happy with how my cake turned out & I don't want to be discontent or ungrateful but you can definitely tell it was my first time!   I had to improvise a lot because I don't have most of the fondant tools that you need to do it on a regular basis.  I learned a lot, used muscles in my arms, shoulders & back that I forgot I had  : \  rolling out the fondant & had so much fun making my Anibella's cake!  My older girls were cute they kept encouraging me how great it looked & they said, "Oh Mommy, ANY Mommy would be SO HAPPY to have this cake for their baby's 1st birthday!  It's beautiful Mommy!"  : ) (I was actually really convicted when they were being so sweet & encouraging me because I realized that meant that they were picking up on the fact that I wasn't absolutely thrilled with how it turned out!  (even though I was trying to not show it)  I guess for how long it took & how much work it was I hoped it would look better & be less "bumpy" in places!  : )  I had to do a little heart searching on why I wanted, needed, CRAVED, it to be perfect!  YIKES!  Yep, needless to say, I had a long conversation with my kind God about that one!)  They were so sweet!  They follow their sweet & always encouraging Daddy's good example!  He was encouraging me that it looked amazing!  The most important thing is that my sweet birthday girl & my very kind & gracious family all LOVED it!  : ) 






Wednesday, October 20, 2010

5 sweet thangs

I took these pictures as we were on our way out the door to Target last week.  Even though it's a little more difficult to get group pictures, there's something sweet about seeing all of my little sissies together & watching how they interact!  I wish I would have had my video camera that day because they were being so cute & silly together!  I took the opportunity to get these pictures because they were all dressed in something other than jammies or play clothes & their hair was actually brushed!  : )  I only quickly snapped about 15 pictures but almost all of them turned out really sweet & showed their cute little personalities!  I did have to laugh at how many pictures it took to get them all looking & not being silly at the same time! 



 

I LOVE Anibella in her little Old Navy baby "skinny jeans" that Auntie Emily gave us!  I also LOVE the sweet look on Ava's little face in the background!





 I LOVE our 5 sweet girlies so much!  : ) 

Monday, October 4, 2010

Anibella "praisin' Jesus" : )

One early evening last week I went grocery shopping without my girls in preparation for Uncle Reed's surprise visit.  They are way too observant now to pull off surprises without them getting curious & figuring it out!  : )  So, I fed my girls & Hubby dinner, my Hubby did the nighttime routine & put them to bed & I fed & nursed my baby girl really well.  Then I let my amazing, big girl helper, Ashley, stay up to "watch" my little Anibella!  I have let Amy stay up to watch Anibella two other times & she LOVED their time together & she did an amazing job too!  Ashley is getting older & so we thought we'd let her try!  (Now, of course, our other sweet little helpers, Abby & Ava want to "babysit" too!  : )  They are both wonderful & really sweet with their baby sissy but not quite ready to take care of her just yet.  Abby will be ready in a few years & although Ava feels as big as her sissies sometimes   ; )  , she's only JUST 3 so it'll be a while!  Wow, I have a great "problem".......girls that are eager to help!  Well, it also might have something to do with alone baby sissy time AND getting to stay up late!  ; )  Regardless, it's wonderful!)  : )  Daddy was right in the same room but Ashley got to play with Anibella, cuddle with her, watch a "Baby Praise" DVD (an adorable & educational DVD set to worship music!) with her & take care of her while I was at the store.  Ashley has a natural gift for nurturing & she genuinely enjoys taking care of her sissies!  She walked around with Anibella, cuddled with her, rocked her, sang to her & watched the DVD together.  Anibella LOVES her little DVD & she was so excited the whole time!  She was very sleepy but she was bouncing up & down, clapping, raising her cute little hands to "praise Jesus", giggling, yawning, staring in complete awe & having so much fun!  She kept looking at Ashley so sweetly as if to tell her how much she loved her time with her big sissy!  Ashley asked Daddy if she could use my camera to get some pictures of Anibella watching her DVD.  She did an amazing job with these pictures of Anibella!  After the DVD was over, Ashley rocked Anibella to sleep!  I came home to a quiet house, a sleeping baby & 4 sleeping big girls!  My Hubby said how cute Ashley & Anibella were together & how special it was to Ashley that she got to be Mommy's big girl helper!  She also thought it was pretty amazing that she got to rock her baby sissy to sleep!  : )  My sweet Anibella is so patient & enduring!  She LOVES her big sissies & she lets them mommy her & never complains!  She is super sweet & cuddly so she just loves when they love on her!  Here are some of the sweet pictures my Ashy took of my little Anibella!  



























Friday, October 1, 2010

My sweet walking baby girl!

Our sweet baby girl is officially & full-on WALKING now!  Anibella took her first steps on Wednesday, August 25th, when she was still just nine months old & she just turned 11 months old on September 28th!  She has been cruising since she was seven months old so she was so ready!  She is very steady on her cute little feet & VERY confident for such a little muffin!  She hardly ever crawls anymore & it is so adorable to watch her walk around!  I LOVE LOVE LOVE how happy & sweet Anibella looks in these pictures!  She totally melts her Mama's heart!  : )

 I love how cute Anibella's little bum looks as she's walking her cute little baby self over to Amy!

Anibella LOVES to climb!  She will climb anything & she is very good at it!  She is tiny & very agile so she can just shimmy up anything!  It's adorable but a little scary for Mommy sometimes!  Here she is trying to get her little foot up on her big sissies' dresser.  


Anibella actually CLIMBED up the dresser when I was right there!  I couldn't believe it!  I got her before she got up too high but my little monkey was just as happy as she could be!  (If you don't know me, I am VERY safety conscious, to a fault sometimes!  My Hubby & I decided where to put this dresser based on safety alone & where it could NOT fall over on any of our girls & not even on where it looked the best!  (Although I think it looks really cute where it is & it works perfectly in our big girls' room.......but I digress!)  It is about 3 feet away from the end of one of our sets of bunk beds so if it could not tip completely over because the bed would stop it!  Just thought I would mention that since if I were reading someone's blog & saw a precious little baby CLIMBING  up a dresser, my first thought would be about the baby's safety!  I was right beside my sweet baby girl & I got her down right away!   (after I got a picture, of course!)  She is one smart & adventurous baby!  : ) 


I HAD to include these few sweet pictures of my big(gest) baby girl, Amy, who so sweetly helped me get these pictures of my littlest baby, Anibella, walking!  Amy is not only a sweet helper but LOVES (all 4 of her sissies!) her baby sissy SO much!  She genuinely enjoys & adores her little Anibella who she affectionately calls "Belle" or "Belles"!  I can't even tell you how it melts my heart to see my oldest loving so sweetly on my littlest!  (I have to say that all of my other big(ger) girls desperately wanted to help me take pictures of Anibella too!  They actually were really sad that I only had Amy in the room with us but it would have just been too distracting for Anibella (in a sweet way cause she loves her sissies all so much!)  I'm so grateful that all of my girls are sweet & nurturing to each other (most of the time!  : ) !) & they love helping me do fun stuff like this!)



 
My biggest & my littlest!  God can do amazing wonderful things in 9 years!  I LOVE my girlies!

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

5000 words

 I
 
love
 
 my
 five
 girls!

Saturday, September 25, 2010

My SWEET Sour-lovin' Ava



"Mommy, I'm a BIG girl.......I LOVE sour candies tooooooo!"  (all her big sissies were eating Sour Skittles)


"Hmmmmm, this is a teeny bit sour......."


"Um, yeah, ugh, this is more sour than I thought....."


"Uh, Mommy.......this is willy willy (gag, cough) willy sour!"


 "Okay, dis is a little sour but I kinda sorta almost like it......."


"Oh, that was so yummy!  Seeeeeee.......I TOLD you I like sour candies Mama!"  : ) 



Oh, how I love my sweet little Ava Gracie! 


Friday, September 10, 2010

Update on Anibella's heart


 I want to share this picture because it so perfectly shows Anibella's sweet & sometimes shy little personality!  She does the cutest little thing with her tongue when she's being shy, trying to do something or just being silly!  She curves her tongue up & over!  I don't know how she does it but it's SO adorable!  I also love this picture because sometimes when we call her name she get's kinda shy & closes her eyes like this!  So, this is a two-fer, she's shyly closing her eyes AND doing her cute little tongue thing!  I SO love her!  

We took Anibella to another Pediatrician for a thorough explanation of the results of her Echocardiogram & to get her weight checked again.  Before I tell you all about it I have to say that WE ARE THANKING GOD FOR VERY GOOD NEWS & WE ARE SO SO SO VERY GRATEFUL! 

Okay, I'll tell you the technical/medical information first & then I'll share what's going on inside of MY heart!  

I will use self-control & not go into detail about the first Pediatrician.  All I will say is that she lacked compassion & her beside manner left much to be desired.  In my opinion, knowing how to talk with parents is pretty much essential in the field of Pediatrics.  Gratefully, the doctor we saw this time was much more kind, compassionate & left us with a good understanding of what is going on with our sweet baby girl!  He actually read us the Cardiologist's report & drew us a diagram so we could see what he was talking about.  He said that, according to the report, the Cardiologist couldn't even completely tell if what our Anibella has is truly an "Atrial Septal Defect" OR a "Foramen Ovale"!  He told us that every baby has a natural hole, called a foramen ovale, in their heart while in utero!  It is described as, "A normal cardiac structure found in all newborns and can be best described as a "door" between the right and left atria.The foramen ovale is essential for proper fetal circulation, directing oxygenated, nutrient-rich blood from the placenta, preferentially to the developing fetal brain. During fetal life, the "door" is open, and blood passes from the right to left atrium. However, with separation from the placenta and with the first few breaths, the left atrium fills with blood returning from the lungs and closes the "door."  During the first years of life, the foramen ovale seals shut and becomes a true wall that separates the right and left atria. However, in a significant proportion of people, the foramen ovale does not seal shut and remains a potential trapdoor between the 2 atria."  He told us that the foramen ovale closes in most babies the day of or the day after birth but that it is possible for it to take a while.  He told us that whether Anibella has an ASD or if it is just her natural foramen ovale that hasn't closed yet, they both can & most likely WILL close in time.  He listened with his stethoscope & he heard absolutely NO MURMUR at all!  My Hubby & I were so surprised, SO incredibly grateful & we are thanking God!  Our Ped said this could mean that the hole in Anibella's heart has already closed or is so very tiny that it's not making noise when her blood rushes through it any more!  He is going to watch Anibella really closely & she will have another Echo when she turns ONE (WOW ~ I can't believe my precious baby girls is already almost ONE!)  : )  which is at the end of October, in 1 & 1/2 months!  He said that having another Echo is really the only way to know for sure if her hole has closed.  So.......we will wait.  We will hope & earnestly pray & trust God & hope some more that God is healing/has healed our sweet Anibella's precious little heart! 

 This isn't about me (at ALL!) but God is using finding out about our sweet little Anibella's heart to show me a lot about my own heart!

I am so grateful that my Hubby was able to work overtime at the beginning of the week so he could be there with Anibella & I!  He is such a source of comfort to me & to our girls & he always always reminds me to trust God!  I loved watching him cuddle with our sweet baby girl in just her little diaper in the room while we waited.  She looked a little nervous & would rest her little head on his shoulder & touch his face to feel his prickly goatee as she looked around the room with her big blue eyes!  So precious!  After a while of cuddling with Daddy she reached for Mommy & melted right into me!  I'm pretty sure she could sense my apprehension even though I thought I was doing a pretty good job of faking that I wasn't worried!  Oh, my brain absolutely knows that my God is sovereign & good & kind & loves my sweet baby more than I ever could but.......sometimes I struggle to transfer that knowledge to a practical outworking in my heart.......to, you know, conVINCE my heart of what my brain knows to be true!  That's when I have to SPEAK God's truth TO my wayward, anxious, fearful & wretched heart instead of LISTENING TO my emotions that can & ARE easily swayed every which way!  Even though Anibella looked a little "concerned", overall she was still her sweet, curious & very happy little self!  I think it's amazing that God allows babies/children to be able to so completely trust their Daddy & Mommy & that she was able to rest on our shoulders as we waited!  How awesome would it be if I had such faith in MY Father!  (note to self.......probe heart about this & work on it!)  : )  As I was preparing for Anibella's appointment I was very fearful but trying to trust God!  I was asking God to help us with what our Ped said & praying earnestly for God to heal my sweet baby!  I am so grateful, beyond what I'm able to convey, that (it appears!) God is allowing our Anibella's heart to be healed!  Most days my heart is full of faith & trust in our amazing & wonderful God who is completely able & worthy to be trusted & loved & worshiped & praised!  On those days, I can pray for my sweet baby without fear & doubt & I'm so grateful for that!  I also have days when my heart is very anxious & fearful & not-so full of faith in my God who is STILL amazing & wonderful & fully able to be trusted, absolutely regardless of how I "feel"!  On those days I find myself wondering "What if this new Ped is just being too casual too.  What if there is really something scary/bad/dangerous going on with my sweet baby's heart that we need to take care of!  What if something happens to my sweet Anibella!?" & my sinful, fearful mind just keeps going from there!  I'm so grateful that God reminds me to "steady my gaze" upon Him!  I'm also grateful that my sweet & wonderful Hubby reminds me to trust God for He is absolutely worthy to be trusted in all things!  We are thanking God for His mercy & grace!  We are also hoping & praying that God is healing & taking care of our sweet baby girl like only our kind & good God can!

We were also there to get Anibella weighed.  She had gained 1 pound & 4 ounces & she had grown an inch in the month between her 9 & 10 month check ups!  Anibella now weighs 16 pounds & 8 ounces!  She is in the 5th percentile so, although she is still very small, she is growing & moving up on the little chart.  I don't depend on those charts but I do appreciate that they give us an idea of how our baby is growing in relation to just herself!  I know that my Anibella isn't going to be compared to a larger baby but it is a good way to gauge how my baby is growing on her own little curve!  Our Ped encouraged me to nurse her as much as she wants & to feed her as much as possible!  He said that he isn't "worried" about her weight but that he'll just watch her closely over the next few months.  He said that most babies around 9-10 months old usually gain about 1/2 a pound to a pound a month.  I think it's awesome that she gained 1 pound & 4 ounces in a month, especially considering how small she is!  YAY!  Gratefully, Anibella is an awesome eater & has a great little appetite!  She eats anything I offer her & she's so patient & enduring as her Mommy tries to put some little chunkies on her cute little self! She's also a champion nurser & still nurses about 4-6 times a day (which I love & I'm so happy that she still loves it too!)!  I lovelovelove my sweet baby girl so much!  We are so grateful & we're thanking God again for His kindness!

I just want to thank you all for praying for our sweet Anibella & for your love & care for us!  We are so grateful that God has allowed us to share this life together!  Love you all!