My sweet Ashley is SEVEN! : ) HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY GIRL!

My precious little Ashley Noelle turned 7 years old on Sunday, December 28th! I was planning on writing a special post for my little sweetie with pictures on her special day BUT......Mommy has been very sick with strep throat! I spent my Ashley's whole birthday on the couch with a high fever & a near excruciating sore throat! The best I could manage was whisper-singing "Happy Birthday" that morning & whisper-singing her special "Birthday Girl" song that Mommy made up & sings to all of our girls on their birthdays that night. I already had the entire dining room decorated the day before & Daddy came to the rescue by letting Ashley help him make Belgian waffles with whipped cream (one of Ashy's favorites!) for dinner with candles on top & we all sang to her! She was SO amazingly sweet & compassionate to Mommy! I felt SO sad that I couldn't make her birthday more special like I wanted to & I kept apologizing to her all day! She never complained & she just kept saying how sad she was that I was sick. She just wanted to sit with me & love on me ~ so typical of my Ashley's nurturing & compassionate heart! : ) (& my other girlies too : )!) After a visit to the doctor, a positive strep test, lots of sleeping, (thank you Daddy, Amy, Ashley & Abby for taking care of our little Ava for Mommy!) & 4 Amoxicillin's later, I'm feeling a smidge better today. I am going to have a "re-Birthday" for my sweet Ashley later this week as a surprise to her! SHHHH : ) ! I am still going to write Ashley's 7th birthday post with pictures as soon as I can. I just didn't want too much time to pass before I acknowledge what a precious gift my little Ashley is to Mommy, Daddy & her 3 sissies! God was so kind & good to give me my little compassionate, nurturing, servant-hearted, fashion forward, funny baby girl! Happy 7th Birthday my little Ashley Noellie, I love you with ALL my heart! You are so precious to us & we thank Jesus every day for you baby! : )

Christmas letter & picture......LATE!

I had so much fun taking our girls' Christmas picture & they turned out absolutely adorable! I was excited to hand them out at church on the Sunday BEFORE Christmas & to get them in the mail for everyone else to have but......the picture place messed them up, TWICE! The first time I went to pick them up the green background looked black & my girls faces looked stark white in comparison with dark eyes & lips! I knew it wasn't good when the girl at the counter who looked at them with me said, "your girls are beautiful, are they wearing makeup?" MAKEUP!? Oh brother! So, she made a note for them to be reprocessed lighter. Well, I went to pick them up yesterday & now they are WAY too light! The background looks light green & my girls faces are blotchy & shiny! UGH! She said they have been having problems like this when pictures are sent online. I thought I was saving myself time by sending them directly to them online but, obviously not! I got to keep them for free so now I have 60 copies of it......better than seeing them throw pictures of my babies away! : ) Another test of this Mommy's very sinful heart! God has a plan & knows what I need! Soooooo, our Christmas letter & picture will now be a New Year's letter & picture! I am hoping God is giving me grace to grow in areas like this. If you know me, pictures are VERY important to me! Even though I love pictures because they capture my sweet family in that moment for all time, if I'm being honest with myself (& assessing my sinful heart for what it really is......) there is too much selfish ambition & pride involved in how I am perceived! : ( So, I shouldn't be "struggling", I will still have my beautiful picture of my sweet little girls, I just need to humbly realize (once again) that I don't have it all together like I like to think I do sometimes! SO sad that I even ever have thoughts like that, huh? I'm so happy that God is gracious & kind & wonderful, even when I'm not!

Hopefully, you will be receiving our letter & picture soon.

We love all of our family & friends! We pray that you are well & enjoying Christmas as you ponder the great & amazing gift that was given to us that day, Jesus, the Savior of the world & the Savior of my heart!

Love,
Erin

Our sweet little Christmas Girlies!

Here are some pictures of our 4 precious little girls in their adorable Christmas nightgowns (a gift from Uncle Tom & Aunt Missy Chambliss ~ they SO know me : ) ! )! I LOVE MY 4 LITTLE GIRLS SO VERY MUCH! : )

December~ The month our Mom's died...... this is a very long post, but for a very good reason!

December has always been one of my favorite months of the year but it is also very sad for us both. Two of the most precious people in our lives, our Mom's, both died in the month of December. Randal's Mom, Amy Curtis Randal Palmer (My Randal was named after his Mom's maiden name) died on December 22, 1982 & my Mom, Rosemary Faulkner Gober died on December 11, 1993. Randal's Mom died when he was only 8 years old in a horribly tragic car accident after a night of family Christmas caroling & my Mom died when I was 18 years old at home after a very long & painful 5 year struggle with breast cancer. We lost them in very different ways but the sadness & grief were very much the same. Randal's Mom had the amazing honor of being a Mommy for only a very short while & my Mom missed seeing me get married to the love of my life by only 4 months. Our hearts are still very sad for them both. "Grandma Amy" & "Grandma Rose" as we affectionately call them would have adored their 4 little Granddaughters & oh how we wish our Mom's were still in our lives for our girlies to know & love! One of the things that bonded us as a young couple was knowing that we had both gone through the loss of our Mom's. I can remember many nights of sitting on the couch together talking about our Mom's, reminiscing about how special they were to us & crying together. Our Mom's were amazing Mother's, Randal's Mom was a wonderful wife (my Mom was a single Mom from the time I was 9 months old) & they both loved God with all their hearts! Both of them lived to honor & glorify God, to serve & love their families & others & were amazing examples until the end of their lives! I missed having both of them at our wedding & wished they could have been with us at the births of our 4 girls! What a fun thing that would have been & how I longed for that! I especially miss them when my girlies do something sweet or cute that I know their Grandmas would love! Randal & I both feel absolutely honored & privileged to have been given such gifts, our Mom's, even if for only a short time. God has been so good & so kind. Even though it has been hard not having our Mom's, we know they are with Jesus enjoying Him forever! In His kindness, God has given us Randal's (stepMom....although she is VERY much his real Mom in every sense of the word!) Mom, Dee & my Grandma, Polly who have been precious to us both! They have filled every longing for a Mom & Grandma (Great Grandma too!) & we are so incredibly grateful for them! I wish you could have known Amy & Rose (our firstborn baby girl is named in honor of her two Grandma's, she is Amy Rose!), you would have completely loved & adored them as much as we do! We thank God for sweet memories with our amazing Mom's & we treasure them in our hearts every day! I don't know how it works, but I pray that they can see us from heaven & can enjoy their sweet little Granddaughters from there! We are very comforted that the 6 little babies we have lost are in heaven being held & loved by their Grandma's ~ a thought that makes my heart smile! We have 4 baby girls to enjoy here & they have 6 to enjoy there! Even though we don't understand why sad things happen, we know that God's enduring faithfulness & sweet love remains. We love & miss our Mom's & we are grateful to God for them!

When I first heard this song, "It Is Not Death To Die" from the Sovereign Grace "Come Weary Saints" CD I did NOT like it! I would skip it immediately & I didn't even want to hear the words. One day I couldn't get to the CD player to skip so I heard the entire thing. I was in tears by the end of the first verse. I thought hearing or singing the song would bring back sad memories of our Mom's deaths & I didn't want to go there. Instead, it was sweet & comforting & made me cry happy tears to realize that when our Mom's died, they went on to be with Jesus where they no longer suffered or ever felt sadness of any kind! When they closed their eyes, they weren't sad, they found amazing happiness & comfort with God....they GET to enjoy God/Jesus FOREVER! They get to dwell with our kind, good, amazing, gracious God who loves & cares for them more than we ever could! Two of my most favorite lines from the song are, "It is not death to close the eyes long dimmed by tears...." and "It is not death to hear the key unlock the door....". I love the first line because my Mom suffered a very painful five years with cancer that went from breast cancer to lung, bone & brain cancer. My Mom DID have eyes dimmed by tears. She had the most beautiful blue eyes & it broke my heart looking into her eyes as she cried in pain as a young teenager trying to make everything better for my sweet mom, my best friend! How sad those days were.... Randal's Mom also suffered greatly in her last few hours of life. She was crushed in a car accident. Everything from the front end of the car ended up against her, pinning her & breaking her body. She was bleeding & broken but her only concern was for her boys. Randal was 8 & Ryan was 5 & although she was in severe pain, she kept asking about her little boys ~ so precious! Randal was sitting in the back across from his Mom so he could see her sweet face covered with blood, the pain & sadness in her soft brown eyes but couldn't get to her! Both of our Mom's came to Jesus having suffered & were made new, never to know suffering or pain again! Such a happy thought! The other line makes me cry because I can imagine Jesus standing on the other side of the "door" unlocking it. I can imagine our Mom's waiting in anticipation, hearing the key, seeing the door open & running into the arms of Jesus......amazing!

If you want to hear this song, click on my Play List to the right of this post.

It is not death to die
To leave this weary world
And join the saints who dwell on high
Who've found their home with God
It is not death to close
The eyes long dimmed by tears
And wake in joy before your throne
Delivered from our fears

O Jesus, conquering the grave
Your precious blood has power to save
Those who trust in You
Will in Your mercy find
That it is not death to die

It is not death to fling
Aside this earthly dust
And rise with strong and noble wing
To live among the just
It is not death to hear
The key unlock the door
That sets us free from from mortal years
To praise You evermore

O Jesus, conquering to grave
Your precious blood has power to save
Those who trust in You
Will in Your mercy find
That it is not death to die


We love & miss you with all our hearts Mom's & Grandma's, Amy & Rose! We thank God for every moment we had with you! You are precious to us!

Happy 9th Birthday my sweet little Amy Rose!

Today is my sweet little Amy Rose's 9th Birthday! Nine years ago today, on December 6th, 1999, my life changed forever & (besides marrying the love of my life!) my sweetest dream came true when I became a MOMMY! Our precious little firstborn baby girl, Amy Rose Palmer, was born nine years ago today at 1:06 in the afternoon, she was a tiny little bundle weighing only 6 pounds even! She had beautiful blue eyes from the moment she opened them, soft light brown hair which soon after turned blond, the most adorable little button nose (a Palmer trait she got from her Daddy & a cute one, I might add!), little dimples when she yawned, smiled or laughed, a perfect tiny little baby body & a sweet, happy & content personality! I was absolutely overwhelmed with love & affection for my baby girl from the first moment I saw her......I was instantly in love! My new Mommy-heart was flooded with love for Amy & gratitude to God! I couldn't take my eyes off of my precious little Amy & I couldn't stop thanking God for His precious gift to us! We became a "family" that day, not just a "couple", something we had desired for so long! I just couldn't believe that God would bless me so richly with my new baby girl! I cried for joy for the little baby I had hoped & prayed for so long to have......& here she was, in her new Mommy's arms! Daddy cried too as he held his tiny little peanut in his big strong arms, which made me cry even more! As a new Daddy he felt an instant desire to protect his little girl which is now x 4 ! Amy is my sweet big girl, my big 9 year old! It is hard to believe how quickly she is growing & becoming a little lady right before my eyes! I am grateful to God for my sweet Amy & the joy that she brings to my heart & our family! Amy is very responsible, very tender to God & to the needs of others. She is sensitive, compassionate, caring, gentle & the most wonderful biggest big sissy to her 3 little sissies! Amy is very artistic, creative & imaginative. She can entertain herself AND her sisters for hours (an amazing blessing to Mommy!). Amy loves animals, all sports, climbing trees, art of any kind, games, imaginative play, being with her 3 little sissies & dates with Daddy & Mommy. She is very girly but also loves to run & play. I had a wonderful day blessing my Amy with all kinds of birthday treats & traditions! We had a chocolate chip pancake breakfast with candles & "Happy Birthday". She also got the rare treat of having some of Mommy's morning coffee, a peppermint mocha ~ YUM! She felt like such a BIG girl! : ) We had her favorite lunch of creamy mac & cheese, green apples & a cupcake, then we sang to her again! Amy got to play on the laptop at the Build-A-Bear website & watch a special movie this afternoon. For dinner Daddy & Mommy made Amy's favorite dinner of steak, noodles with butter & parmesan cheese, steamed broccoli, steamed corn, cream mac & cheese, rolls & again, a rare treat of Dr. Pepper to drink! Then we ate Daddy's famous peppermint mocha cupcakes and....sang to her again! (We make birthdays last in our home!) Mommy decorated in turqouise & lime green at Amy's request. She didn't want any pink this year & Mommy was actually okay with that! (I can hear your gasp of surprise : ) !) She is always so grateful & genuinely happy for anything we do for her, she is a precious little girl! We are grateful to God for our sweet 9 year old Birthday Girl! Thank you for being such a treasure to Daddy, Mommy & your 3 baby sissies! I am unendingly & forever grateful to God for that wonderful day in December nine years ago when I had my sweet little Amy Rose & my life changed forever!

HAPPY 9TH BIRTHDAY AMY! WE LOVE YOU BABY GIRL! : )

New Laptop : ) Yippee!

My awesomely sweet Hubby waited outside of BestBuy for Black Friday ON Thanksgiving Day, IN the COLD, ALL NIGHT LONG so that we could get a new family laptop. If you have read our blog in the past you might remember that I dropped my laptop & cracked the entire screen a few months ago! OOOOPS, very sad day! Our new laptop was such a great deal & there is no way we could have gotten a new one otherwise! So, while our 4 little sweeties, my sister, our neice & I were having a wonderful Thanksgiving Day (although we were sad without our Daddy!) in NC with my Grandparents, my man was hanging out at BestBuy for us! Just another way he gives of himself to bless, serve & provide for our family! On top of that, as soon as he got home on Friday morning after staying up all night, he had to get right on his school work! Wow, he's my hero! So, I am HAPPY to say that I now have a laptop that works & I can get back to faithfully blogging! Our new laptop has a really cool feature, I can just put my digital picture card right into the side of the laptop instead of the little picture downloader thingy I used to have to fiddle with! Maybe that's not new but it's really cool to me & as we all know, I'm NOT very technicologically (is that a word ~ I never know!) savvy! So, get ready for LOTS of pictures & blogging to come! I've missed blogging about my favorite things ~ God, my Hubby & my 4 little girlies! I can't wait to share all the great pictures we've taken over the past few weeks & when my sister was here. I gotta run make lunch for my babes but I'll be back later to work on my pictures......SMILE! : )