My sick little Ava & my fearful heart!

My little Ava is sick & my Mommy-heart is learning to trust God yet again. On Thursday she started not feeling well & has been running a high fever ranging from 103.7 to 104.3! Since she has no other symptoms (besides feeling yucky!) my Pediatrician thinks she has a virus that will go away in a few days. When I discovered her fever at 2 am on Friday morning I felt that old and, unfortunately, very familiar fear welling up inside of me! Even though I've been down this road many times with sick little ones, my heart sank. As I scooped her up & walked around holding her, the only thing (in my exhausted and fearful state) I kept praying was "Jesus, please heal my baby & help my heart to trust you, God please protect my Ava & help me to trust you!" God is faithful, He is kind, He cares about the fears in my heart & about my sweet little Ava! In those 2 am moments (& many more in between!) I can easily be discouraged with myself that even though I have witnessed God's goodness and faithfulness with my own two eyes, here I am again, doubting His goodness. A few years ago I was struggling with the same kind of fears and my sweet friend, Vivian, told me about a quote that I have remembered and think on still. She said, "although God is absolutely concerned about what is going on in your heart & life, "He is not sympathetic to your unbelief"! So, it's a daily conversation with myself, to trust God in everything. My hope is that God will give me His grace to glorify Him even in those unseen, quiet moments, rocking in my nursery with my sick baby in my arms. My sweet baby girl is doing a little better today and I am praising God for it!